Documentary History of the State of New York, Vol. II
I believe every body must allow that the Inspec tion of his Accot against me alone can not determine such a matter, mine against him has already been before Gentlemen of reputation & Character, his own friends, & one of them is still Living. I am ready to prove it on Oath, as well as to Shew that many considerable Articles have not been charged by me which would have made the ballance still more in my favor.
According to the Extract you favored me with Lady Warren speaking as I take it of my Relations, used the Word (They) as if it was a general complaint of them all, or at least of more than one, I wish I knew what I am to understand by it because (They) write me directly the Contrary as for Sterling I have not so much as heard of him till very lately, and look upon it that his desperate fortune may drive him to any thing. -- Should any other of my Connections attempt to follow his Example a Circumstance I do not believe (having evidence to the contrary in my hands,) I should be glad they were pointed out to me.
I beg you may assure Lady Warren that I esteem her too much to wish to occasion her any perplexity, & hope I may not be reduced to that necessity, and I have that respect for my Uncles reputation & memory to suppose that coolly he would never have disappointed his Relations by so Extraordinary a Legacy, but the Circumstances & manner of his death will sufficiently Justify me in supposing that he did not then advert to the nature of his Accot with me & only thought of his own against me without regard to mine against him otherwise I cannot account for his acting so Contrary to his repeated declaration in my favor, and the constant assurances I had ever since he persuaded me over to this country of sharing a part of his very large fortune, which I might have done withoutany sensible prejudice to the rest of his family, My Esteem fo-r his memory induce me to accot in this manner for his Last